For the first time in a long time, deep intense feelings I have for a person aren’t affecting my rationality. Thoughts about the reality of where he is, and where I am don’t hurt. It’s slightly lamentable, but I’m not agonizing like I am wont to do. And it does suck, because I haven’t felt this way about someone in a long time (mainly since my last relationship), but there are some walls I can’t break down without losing respect for myself and that of others.
I hold the people I love and trust to high standards, because it is how they respect our relationship. I shall do the exact same.
Looks like someone awakened that deep, very calculative part of me that has laid dormant for a little bit.
Welp, they asked for it.
I verbally cut your balls off. It happened tonight for the first time in a long time. AND IT FELT SO FUCKING GOOD TO PUT AN IDIOT IN HIS PLACE.